South East to ME

I feel like an emotional hole. i feel caught between this life and a life i so wish i could live.

I remembered today the plans i had for my life, to be a free spirit, to meet that need in the world around me that only i can fill.
To write, to be involved in the performing arts, to be a part of something big. I want to hustle and succeed, i want to love endlessly and see the world through happy eyes. i want a light heart and hopeful thoughts. i want to understand my path and follow it

I want to wake up feeling every breath is worthwhile and necessary.
Lord help me free of this melancholy life and take me to where i need to be. I fear i will die here, forget who i am here. lose that spark of life that makes me, me in this space. i need to be brave, courageous, take that leap of faith;

Please catch me.